So its been like a month since I've last been on here, I know I know! 'Zane find a good blogging schedule!' I'm trying I swear! Anyways schools been good, Monday starts the fifth week! I've been applying at retail stores because I want to get back into the fashion world. I've been designing a lot in my graphic design class and I'm in the process of launching my own clothing line, Novaboi Apparel. Abbas and I are still dating but I'm starting to loose interest in the relationship. He treats me right don't get me wrong but he's somewhat controlling and very stubborn plus he isn't out to anyone so I'm his like secret love boy or something. I mean I haven't come out to my folks but I'm basically 90% out of the closet. He doesn't kiss me or hold my hand in public the only time we were open and public with out relationship is when we went to palm springs for valentines day weekend, which is were I met Amanda Lepore! It was fun, we held hands, dined, kissed, made out in the jacuzzi, and the sex my god the sex I'm out of breath just reminiscing. BUT there are to many cons than there are pros so I'm considering the possibility of leaving him. Oh wait! PLUS he says he doesn't trust me and he always telling me to be good, that shit INFURIATES me, because I have never done anything to make him not trust me. So its whatever at the moment, we had really good make up morning sex so that will get me through the day. I'm going clubbing tonight with my new friend Brendon, he's gay and there's like slight flirtatious tension between us so I haven't been clubbing with him so it will be interesting. Alcohol, bass, and a cute boy might make an interesting next blog entry. Don't look at me like that, I'm in an open relationship which, means I get all the side line hoes I want, even though I kinda like this Brendon kid.
Awww Zane. Have you told him how you feel? Because if you did I think you should tell him that you'll walk if this relationship doesn't get better. I know us free-spirited types don't like to be tied down or told anything which prompts us to rebel...that's why he's being insecure because of those tendency. Yet since it's an open relationship I think that is what's causing problem, it's a weird fine line and someone bond to get hurt(insecure) while other started not giving a F. Plus some ppl have a hard time opening up to others so, if want him to come out you need support and "communicate" with him.
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