Worms in the Carpet.

Today I did dmt which is a psychedelic drug. You experience it's effects twice in life naturally, when you're born and when you die. It only last about 5 minutes but depending on the dosage you take you can either have a total loss of connection to conventional reality or a relaxing yet strangely hectic trip. The first time I did it I felt like I was melting into my jacket. Today was the second time did it. I took in a higher dosage and began to see the carpet pulsate and worms beginning to crawl out through the minuscule cracks. I still felt like I was slightly melting and my pillow's pattern morphed into a maze and began to move with the ambient music that was playing. My friend snapped a picture as I was coming to, it was a strange and enjoyable experience to say the least.

Surprise. Surprise.

So on Sunday I had my regular work hours and guess who decides to come in and work out after being M.I.A for more than a month, yupp that guy! We'll just call him Alex. Of course like always I got completely nervous and totally forgot to say what I planned to say which was, "long to no see, I was starting to miss you" but noo I had to get nervous and loose my thoughts. He noticed my hair cut and asked why I cut it all off. I told him I was getting tired of it and then he joked and said something like "You look like a good boy now, gonna get good grades?" We both laughed and then he went to work out. I won't know anything until next week cause he doesn't come in on Fridays, so we will see.

Disappointment.

I really don't like when my friends say "When I have my car we can do stuff all the time, go to fun places and do shit when ever." And then when they have a fucking car they never want to go anywhere or do fun shit. I was looking forward to going to this goth club thing with witch house and darkwave music but no my friends have to be lame as fuck and cancel at the last moment. Don't say you want to do fun stuff and try new things when in reality you're going to make plans and cancel them at the last minute. I'm just going to stay in this room, curl up in a ball, and watch some gay cinema so I can cry myself asleep.