Stupidly Stressed.

I have been so busy lately its ridiculous! I haven't even had that much time for youtube, which is something I always try to make time for cause I love all of my subscribers and viewers so I always try to post more than once a week. I have recently withdrawn myself from Obey The Gay, the gay collab channel I was apart of, I didn't have time because of school and work. My only days off are Tuesdays and Thursday and I need those days to study, I was the Thursday guy on the collab channel so thatwas  a little tiresome. Although I'm no longer apart of Obey The Gay I am talking to my old channel mates and we are thinking about regrouping and starting fresh with a brand new channel. Obey The Gay wasn't really all that organized and we had so many member changes. We went through three different guys and a pan-sexual female and we still didn't have a full week of people. So anyway I'm just dealing with work, school and my personal channel. Oh and on a side note I'm so unbelievably pissed off that I can't find any 90's type platform shoes for men. Like just regular sneakers or high top sneakers with a fucking big ass plat form, why is that so hard to find? I'm just going to have to make platforms and add them to my old high top sneakers. I guess that's cool cause the original club kids made all there own platform shoes, it's just a lot of work.

Raves in the Ghetto.

On Friday I went to a little rave called Bubbles foam festival. It was a small, two stage rave with Hardstyles, Hardcore, Dubstep, House and Electro music. I haven't been to a small rave like that in over year because Insomniac and Fresh parties take up all my time and money. It was fun! Got to see an old friend, she been away from the group cause her boyfriend was everyone's best friend and he moved to Virgina about half a year ago so she some what withdrew from the group. There was a bubble foam pit hence the name of the rave and it created so much foam that through out the night foam was literally everywhere. Humorous at first but I soon became irritated because a hardstyles dj started spinning and I couldn't dance because the floor was to slippery due to the fucking foam and I really wanted to dance cause the hardcore that was being played before was not good, it was like gabber and soft grindcore which resulted to me not being able to keep up and dance to it. I got over the fact that I couldn't fully get into the beat so I went to the house electro stage and dance the rest of the night away.

Love at first Wink?

Last Sunday I was at my usual Sunday shift at work catching up on my reading for English when my "Athletic Club Lover" (I guess that's his name now) came in and completely took me by surprise because he was a little earlier than usual so I smiled with excitement when I saw him. Greeted him and he smiled and nodded back, he stalled before entering the gym because he lost his parking ticket, he always validates it before entering the gym, he was a bit talkative while searching for his ticket. Once he found it he smiled at me and we kept catching each other checking one another out while he validated. Before entering the gym he turned to me one last time and winked at me. I immediately turned red due to blushing and couldn't focus on anything let alone my reading.  Later when he left I wished him a nice day and he said "Thank you, you too."

 So he is starting to become more talkative and less shy. I think he was just trying to assess the situation because a man his age most likely doesn't get that kind of attention from someone as young as me. I get so nervous and happy when I think about him it's crazy. I haven't felt this way about a guy in a really long time and I don't even think its weird even though he is old enough to be my father, well he's actually older than my father but age is just a number. I'm excited to go to work on Sunday cause that is the only day I see him at work. I can't wait~

All I have to offer.

I get unbelievably irritated when others comment on my appearance and automatically call me vain, self absorbed or pretentious. None of those things apply to me at all. I have a wicked fashion sense, in my opinion. No body dresses like me in Culver, besides my friends. With that being said I get the constant day to day looks and stare downs by random people on the street. I've gotten flicked off for wearing platform shoes. Yell at for dressing to "flashy" and what not. Excuse me for a having a sense of fashion just because I don't shop at Abercrombie and Fitch and wear uggs doesn't give you the right to talk down to me and call me vain or pretentious. All I really have to offer is my fashion sense. I'm not talented in any way, shape or form. As for my intelligence, oh please my head is full of air. My face isn't really anything special or nice to look at, only thing that's on point are my outfits. I'm not afraid to dress up either, platform shoes, 12 inch extension, I don't give a fuck. I do give plenty of fucks when people automatically write me off and label me as a pretentious, self absorbed hipster, YOU HAVE ME SO FUCKED UP. I was a hipster like 2 years ago, I grew out of it. Anywho I'm so over it, I just like to dress up cause you should never need an occasion to dress up. If you feel pretty in platform creepers and a patched up jacket then wear it! Life is to short to not to feel pretty.