Last tuesday I went to Tigerheat for the first time. For those of you who don't know what Tigerheat is, it's a gay club and Tuesday, Thursday and Sunday nights they have 18+ events. Anyways I went for the first time with 8 of my other friends and on a whole we had a great time. I just wish that I wasn't so shy and scarred to put myself out on the market. I'm not seeing any one and haven't for about a year I'm completely single but am I ready to mingle? With in ten minutes of being at the club an older gentlemen lit my cigarette for me which is a nice gesture, I just smiled and then ignored him. Through out the night I could pick up on guys checking me out but I never did anything about it. I'm not used to all this kind of attention I guess. All of my friends kept telling me to talk to guys and find a "daddy" so we could get some drinks but I wasn't ready for all that. A part of me feels guilty because I feel like I dragged them out to west Hollywood to a gay club only to go home alone. Can't I just get a feel of the place and take things slow? Anyways I'm rambling basically next week we're going again but this time we are drinking and that way I can have some liquid bravery in my system, is that cowardly? I really don't care I need something to help me along the way. Oh my youtube videos are done uploading I guess this is it.
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